I am taking a lot of deep breaths today. I’m sad and I’m teary. Nothing has happened, per say, I just feel the heaviness of my situation today. I didn’t sleep well and I know that things seem worse when I’m over-tired…I keep shaking my head wondering if this last year has been a bad dream. It hasn’t. It’s all real, very real. As I read emails from my son’s psy doc saying ‘we are losing valuable time’, I cringe with a feeling of being out of control. I’m helpless to help my son. So my head shakes and my eyes tear up….