Do you ever tell yourself something over and over? You may even believe it for a second…then for two seconds…5 minutes..30 minutes and maybe even 1 hour..BUT: then you don’t. You don’t believe it. That’s me. I do okay, then I slip, then….I’m GOOD, I can do this (I say with GUSTO). Then I can’t. Gosh this roller coaster is crazy and I don’t like. I always felt so in control of my day, my emotions, my life. Now it is painfully clear that all of that was a facade. I never had any control, I just thought I did. That thought actually brings me some comfort. I feel more real now. I’m plugging along on this cold and sunny Friday…learning to let go….